I'm on the list

This past weekend I went to Cashville...sorry, had a Young Buck moment...Nashville to celebrate my sister's birthday. She turned 30-something. Anyway, a friend of mine plays sax in different bands in Nashville and happened to be playing Saturday night for an event called, Art 'N Soul at an Art Gallery in Madison, TN(right outside of Nashville). So, my friend is allotted one extra ticket for the show so he invites me to come. My sister and her fiance decided to come and celebrate her birthday at this art showcase. We're on our way there, and her fiance is driving and talking on the phone(loudly) when we pass the Art Gallery. So, once we turn around and park, we head inside. My sister's fiance pays for them to get in and my friend is on the stage saying, "just tell them you're on the list!"

"I'm on a list!" Seriously? I've never been on a list before. At first I felt important, but then I felt that the person I knew was important. How cool is that? To be able to put people on a list? You may think I'm corny(okay...I am), but I felt like I had an insight to what my friends' career is going to be like. I can totally see him in an actual venue handing out VIP/backstage passes to people. I told him that I wanted one that says, "Don't even ask me for my ticket! I'm with the band".

He is the type of person that draws people to him. He always managed to be the center of attention, whether he's supposed to be or not. This fool is in the middle of playing on stage when he hops off the stage and starts playing while he's walking through the crowd!

Since it's my sister's birthday, he gets the band leader, Don Adams, to sing her Happy Birthday. She turns bright red! Then, just when she hopes he stops, he goes into the 2nd verse of the song, "I hope you get some tonight!" Her fiance is pointing to her saying, "I got this, dawg!!" The look on my sister's face is absolutely priceless.

In all, we had a great time. We saw some really cool artwork, listened to some really good music and laughed all night. I hope my sister had a great time.

Here are some pictures from that night:

The DIVAS before the event


The soon-to-be Mr& Mrs


My best friend that tore it up; he's a damn fool, though


The painting that the artist did throughout the night

**Disclaimer: To those that know me; the following is not about anyone in particular**

Ready for Love

I am ready for love

Why are you hiding from me?

I'd quickly give my freedom

To be held in your captivity

I've been on this journey of self-discovery for a while now. My life has been turned completely upside down and slowly being put back together. I had been very hesitant to date or even allowing myself to be available to someone else. I am still "technically" married, but as of today, there are 54 days until it's official and the divorce is final. One of my fears is that I'll be alone. I do not however want to rush into another relationship, but I would like to start dating. I think I'm ready to venture out into that world.

What's odd is that I've never really "dated". I've always met someone and then, magically we're together. I'd like for things to be totally different than what I've been used to. I want a guy to call me up and ask to take me to a dinner, a movie, hell...a walk in the park. I want to be courted (as my grandmother would say). There are guys that I am interested in, but for once I'd like for someone to show more interest in me than sexually(although that is flattering).

There is so much more to me than most of the men in my past have ever gotten to know. I'm ready for someone to want to get to know "me".

I am ready for love

If you'll take me in your hands

I will learn what you teach

And do the best that I can

Happy New Year!

Well....2005 is officially a wrap!! It was a year full of change, pain, and growth. Me and some friends spent New Years Eve on Beale St. It was a tad bit chilly, but definitely worth it. We were in the midst of the crowd as the countdown began, and as cheesy as it sounds, I almost couldn't stand the anticipation of the new year. I actually felt like crying when the new year hit and the fireworks went off.

A lot of people choose the new year to make new starts in their lives; lose weight, new careers, etc. I guess its a good starting point for reinventing. I guess I'm wanting to reinvent myself as well, but mine is more internal than external (I wouldn't mind losing 10lbs, but...anyway). I feel like I've already started some of my changes, I've been working on a sort of "cleaning out my closet", dealing with some skeletons in there.

I intend to be happy this year and surround myself who can only contribute to that happiness. I'm tired of wallowing in other people's problems/issues. I'm not saying that I'm not going to be supportive of my friends and family with their problems, but I'm not going to take them on. There were a lot of times that I would stop what I doing in order to take on someone else's issue. I'm going to work really hard at saying what I feel and not worry how someone else is going to take it. I also refuse to be walked on anymore by people. There are only two people in this world that my life revolves around; my children.

It's time for me to regain control of my destiny...here's to 2006!