It's monday and I've had writer's block for a while now. I'll start a post and then just go blank right in the middle of it and I can't finish it. I may have too many random thoughts going at once. I'm going to do what my 10th grade teacher had us do to get our thought process back on track. I'm going to attempt to write a blog using stream of consciousness. Now...I will go back and edit some language and names later.
Here goes:
okay my kids still aren't sleep i don' t know why. i hope andrew stays dry tonight he;s got to get out of pull ups at some point, now is a good time. i'm really bored and drinking all this water makes me have to pee alot. what did i do? i've always been there but lately he won't talk to me, but i don't know why. i think its a bunch of bullshit and i don't like cowards if somebody has something to say to me then thay should just say it. i don't like people beating around the bush because i'm worth more than that. i at least deserve the truth instead of being left in the fucking dark. that shit was just rude bottom line. i don't care what i did or didn't do, i never deserved that. this show is stupid but theres nothing on. at least i don't feel like eating thank goodness for those 3 lbs lost can't wait to see how much i lost this week, i've done so much better than i thought i would. my head is starting to hurt and i can't think of anything else. i hope the people upstairs don't start fighting again i can't take hearing that scream again, i don't know what i would do. i'd have to check into a hotel so the boys can sleep. sleep - i think they're asleep. why haven't i been able to sleep lately? i don't know i think its because i cut out my caffeine and its taking time to work out of my system. i feel like i'm in rehab and i'm going through withdrawal - actually from a lot of things. from late night talks and laying in the bed watching tv. i guess at some point i'll get used to it, but i don't want to. its hard having questions and no answers. i don't think i feel like writing anymore.
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