This has been the weirdest couple of months.
Episode #1 - I recently went to a T.I. concert (appearance is more like it) with a really good friend of mine. While in the line to get in, I'm looking over the banister and I think I see my psycho ex from high school. I'm thinking to myself that it can't be him because he should be in Iraq - but as I get a closer look, it is him!!! I immediately start panicking. When I say this guy is crazy, I mean crazy. He was abusive as well; which is why I started panicking. I haven't seen this guy since 1997 or '98. So, for a split second (actually, 5 hours), I wanted to go home. I couldn't imagine being in the same enclosed space with him for more than 2 seconds. Not that I thought he would do anything to me, I just didn't want to be near him. I spent most of the evening making sure I knew where he was, so that I couldn't be surprised at any point. He never said anything the entire evening, but his prescence was enough to ruin my night.
Episode #2 - I get this Tiger Band Alumni email every so often. Most of the time, I never read them, but this time I did. It was something about a drumline reunion and it had people that they were looking for and one of the emails was my college ex. I have no idea why I did what I did next - I emailed him. I didn't think I'd get a response back, but I did. I asked how he was doing and we exchanged emails talking about kids and families and whatnot. This went on for about a day. We decided that it was just too weird talking to each other after such a long time and I wished him well and that was that. This guy wasn't a psycho when we were dating, we were simply young and immature.
Episode #3 - So, I'm in the grocery store yesterday with my kids - who by the way are acting like complete monkeys. We're turning the corner to get milk and butter, when I see this guy. He's tall, kinda muscular and its my other high school ex!!! All I could think was you gotta be kidding me!! I was trying to think of my options, do I quickly turn the other way and try to avoid him, or do I continue to get my butter? I opt to get the butter and make the best of the situation. I walk over and speak to him and we have a pretty light conversation about what we've each been up to and kids, work, etc... We say our goodbyes and that was that.
I don't know what is going on....why are all these guys crossing my path? I don't know. Talking to each one was extremely awkward and slightly uncomfortable, especially episode 1. I'm starting to get afraid to walk out of the house because I'm afraid I'll run into another ex :)
2 comments:
Maybe running into all of these people is a way for you to have closure. Either you can realize you are over them or realize they are over you and either way you can move on..
What does love completely mean? Never settle for something or someone that is less than what you deserve and familiar roads are not always the best route to take... Get a baby wipe, and take the WELCOME off your forehead (if it is on there that is...)
I know it was a sign of closure which was good for me. As far as the "love completely" comment - I will accept your advice on the familiar road thing, but WELCOME is not on my forehead anymore. Sometimes you don't go down a familiar road because they just opened up a new part of the interstate and you want to try it out, but you find that it doesn't lead you where you want to go and the familiar road does.
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